That Feeling

Ever been in love? I have. Twice actually. It's a feeling so hard to describe. Because it's so much more than just a word. It's the person, the place, the effort, and most of all the time. You can't just take those butterfly feeling in your stomach an assume it's love, because you could end up saying it to the wrong person. You need to put effort into letting them know how you feel. It's like taking care of a flower, you need to make sure it has everything it needs before it can bloom into something beautiful. And it takes time. Now some people fall in love with the right person at the right time really fast. But for others, it takes time to bridge those feelings to the "L" word. It's really scary to say it, and quite frankly it's a pretty scary moment. You have all these worries; what if they don't feel the same? Is it too early? These questions race through your mind, but once you say it, oh boy. It's like a weight is lifted off you. But once you have that feeling it can go two ways; they can say it back and you feel like the world makes sense again. OR, they don't feel the same and that weight comes crashing down again. But that's not what I'm trying to explain. What I want to say is, love is good. Embrace it. Feel it. And once you have it, don't let go.

When It All Comes Together

Life is full of loose ends. They are friendships, relationships, interests, ideas. And all of them have a connection with something. Now when you find that connection everything else seems to come together into one big something. Everything seems to make sense, and you feel accomplished. Connections in life are made for a reason. We may not know the reason, and we may never will, but they make our life complete. In the words of my wise father, "You need to plug it into the right thing, or else it won't fit," now this was being said about a power cord but it relates to this as well. Only the right thing can fit. And sometimes when it doesn't you just have to go and try again. But there are rare occasions when you find the right fit without even looking. And those, are the best.

Discoveries!

Am I the only girl who feels like givingup on guys and girls?! I mean guys are so much work, and when you think you have found the right one something goes wrong. And girls are just as bad. they can be the best friends in the world then all of sudden you just can't stand them! Well I have agreed to make myself happy. It's amazing how I've never thought of this before. Doing something that makes ME happy. Who else wants to give it a try, it's actually really great. I mean you talk to the people who make you happy and thats it! Wish me luck on this new discovery!

It's been so long....

i realize how long its been since i last updated...so i might as welll catch you up. I chopped off my hair, have no boyfriend, made some enemies, mad some friends, summers here, went to the beach, cried, tried being nice (and failed), i got roped into going to Harry Potter, and thats about it. Hope you enjoyed the past few months of my life in a nut shell :)

Reflection Time!

so it's the end of the year soon people. wow it went by very fast. who knew being a freshman wud be over so quickly! but this year was great :) i made up with one of my best friends, i met a guy, i got good grades, i fell in love, joined the track team, made new friends, competed in a meet, resolved some differences...so all in all it was a good year :) i hope this awsome streak of happiness continues cuz i sure as hell like it! everyone goes through a rough patch i guess, but all that counts is u get back on the good road and head which ever way makes u happy :) but keep in mind that this year is not over yet, still have a couple weeks of school left and anything can happen....