Well . . .

I don't have any life lessons for you guys today, so I decided an update might do instead. IT IS FINALS WEEK. I am freaking out, non-stop, mostly because I  have no idea what I'm doing with my life. That is probably a lie, but it's finals week. I can say whatever I want because I think I'm dying. This update is more for my mental health than anything else.

I lied. I do have a life lessson. It just came to me as I was writting about the status of my nonexistent mental health. So, it appears college is a time for many firsts. Plenty of new experiences to keep you on your toes throughout your journey. Last time I shared that I was happy. I am hapy. And even though I'm questioning every choice I make this week, I am still happy. I'm not going to share too much because I'm still trying to figure it out for myself. But just know, the universe heard me and it decided that it was my turn. This time, I don't mind being a little clueless about my next move or what's going to happen. I am enjoying the ride for once. Taking in all the scenery. I promise, that when the time is right I will share with you all. But for now, I'm keeping this new found magic to myself. It's more fun to leave the public wondering.

Finally

There comes a time after an event where you are hit with the lesson you are suppose to learn or the realization you are suppose to come to. I have learned my lesson and come to that realization. This actually happened awhile ago, I'm just now finally getting around to sharing it.

I am a happy person in general. I know who I am, and I basically know what I want for myself. Sure, things may get foggy every now and then, but that's just life. I am happy. I can't stop saying that. Sometimes it takes a good kick in the pants to realize what you really want or need from and for yourself. The way I see it, life is like you are writing your own book. You can do what ever the hell you want with it. Rip out a chapter, start a new one, change the subject. It's YOUR life. I started a new chapter. And I really like it. These past few weeks I have been learning so much about myself. Parts of me that I have left untouched because I was too scared before to ask myself the hard questions. I let certain feelings dictate my actions, when in actuality, that's not who I really am. I plan, I think, I prepare. I know how I feel and I'm blunt about it. But this doesn't mean I don't leave room for love, and spontaneity, and risks. Those are some of my favorite things. There's no time to leave your heart closed, no matter what happened before. People are too scared, too skeptical to admit they want to be happy. I don't say that lightly. About 90% of you who will read this may be offended, but it's true. As humans we want to be happy. Yet we are too scared to take the risk. Too skeptical to think it's real and will last. That's no way to live.

Start a new chapter, I dare you.