A Fresh Start

I am not good at a lot of things. But I have always been good at getting hurt. At giving myself to the wrong people. At thinking everything is going to be okay right before it all blows up. I have to make a fresh start. I need a new name, new place, new people. A fresh start to make myself who I really want to be. I have always been me, just recently I have have gotten a little lost. I'm not sure why. It's pretty sad. Maybe love was the problem. This hurt I am experiencing is the most pain I have ever felt. I don't feel like a person. My mind is all over the place and I don't expect any of you to really understand what I'm rambling about right now. I'm grasping at straws. Still trying to land on my feet after the world I knew and loved was completely destroyed. I hope I will be okay. All I can really hope for at the moment is that I can survive.