It's All For You

We all have that one person our life revolves around. We can't help it because it just turns out that way. I'm like that too. Everything I do doesn't benefit myself alone. I take in to consideration what he needs or wants. Sometimes I don't even think of myself at all. The debate on whether this is health or not doesn't really matter to me. I'll admit that I make decisions solely based on what I think will benefit him and our relationship. I'm not afraid to admit everything I do is basically for him. Unhealthy or not it's how I am.

Lost

Sometimes I don't know what I'm doing. I just get so tangled up in my thoughts that I don't know which way is up and which way is down. It's like being trapped in your own room. You know where everything is and what it does, but knowing you're stuck there is just terrifying. I know where I am. But at the same time, I don't. It's a paradox . . . maybe. I don't know. We all have to get lost once in awhile to know where we are trying to go. It's like . . . imagine you are on a bike. Now sometimes in life you go solo and just ride alone. Then one day you trade it in for a tandem bike. One person in front, and the other has no just choice but to sit in the back and follow. Relationships should not be like that. You should both be on your own bike, going your own pace. If there's a fork in the road you may go different ways. But I think, if it's meant to be you will eventually end up on the same road again. One person may lead every so often. Guiding you gently in a direction you both want. Then sometimes you take the lead. In the direction you want. That's how it's suppose to be. Give and take.  There are those who choose to follow and let the others lead. Let them fulfill their dreams instead of pursuing your own. Does it make you happy? Maybe. Maybe not. I have my own bike. I don't know where I'm going yet. I might decide this path is right for me. You may decide it's not for you. All that I hope for is that in the end, when we have both had our adventures, those two different roads will merge into one. The rest is undecided. It always is. But getting lost is what gives you the time to stop, take a breathe, and do what you want.